hoodie season

As Spring quickly approaches, the rain created the need for hoodies, as the attire to weather the elements of the season. In addition, the many astronomical events happening during the month of March, has my emotions and thoughts in specific places within, activating the concept of healing the wounds experienced throughout this journey. In addition to participating in shadow work; with the intention of addressing inner- child wounds. I am aware, it has been a while since I've shared anything however, between my courses [particularly, Philosophy- Symbolic Logic, as well as the coursework expected for completion in my other courses], social media engagement, and practicing self-care, I have been unable to share on some platforms in contrast to others. As of this moment I have completed the necessary assignments due prior to enjoying time to rejuvenate during Spring Break. 

One of the activities scheduled a few weeks after Spring Break, is a visit to the Spa with the intention of enjoying a massage, as well as time in mud and mineral water. In an on-going commitment to health and well-being, some benefits of mud and mineral water, contribute to an improvement with skin health, muscle relaxation, pain relief, and reducing stress. I've recently experienced the effect of feelings interpreted as a regulated nervous system. I felt as if my body was released of anxiety in that moment, allowing me to incorporate additional wellness practices in an attempt to improve my physical health. Understanding the improvement with physical health, can also stimulate relaxation in regard to one's emotional, mental, and spiritual health.

After I completed my assignments, I began to turn my focus onto myself, beginning with calculating my budget for April 2025; with the intention of better financial decisions. Next up, I intend to incorporate time allotted for physical fitness, in the atmosphere of the gym at least three to four times this week; as I am using the break to focus on self- care, growth, healing, joy, and creative writing expressions. I have however, decided to dedicate some time for studying as well as preparing for the course scheduled to begin at the end of March. An area receiving attention and opportunities for growth, has been deconstructing perfectionism. As I have accepted the character traits contributing to the expression of perfectionism symptoms, I recognize when I am satisfied with the work I have completed, understanding that feeling provides a more sustainable source of validation and accomplishment. Alleviating the desire to overthink the completed project, while feeling fulfilled with the quality of work submitted for my assignments. Lastly, organized my calendar to reflect various appointments, errands, and scheduled activities.  

As I anticipate the coming of Spring, I am looking forward to the return of Madi and Maxi dresses, cute sandals, and pretty nail polish choices as a creative form of self- expression. Currently, OPI's "emflowered", is my color of choice, as Spring approaches and I am attracted to the hue of this creamy, bright pink. A couple other little-known observances would be "Brain Awareness Week [March 13- 19]" and "World Folktales & Fables Week [March 19- 25]", although I discovered them on a website which "celebrates everyday", these observations are not listed as they change annually; nevertheless, when I discovered them I added them to my calendar with the intention of acknowledging them. Another one of my favorites is, "National Weed Appreciation Day [March 28]"; although this day is to observe the acknowledgment of weeds such as dandelions and the like, I choose to acknowledge marijuana as a pre-420 celebration.

With 420 in mind, I have decided to indulge in a micro-dose of an [indica] cannabis- infused, pink lemonade gummy. As I watched the Sun rise, turning from night to day, I felt compelled to complete this expression before breakfast or returning to my dreams. Speaking of dreams, I have been so consumed with coursework of papers I've written and concepts learned have been the storyline of my dreams. I did wonder, "how would Freud interpret these dreams according to psychodynamic psychology?" I will admit, since this has been the occurrence the past few weeks, I have seen improvements within the results of my quizzes for Philosophy- Symbolic Logic.  So far my average on quizzes and tests have been in the range of 70- 79%, which is a C yet the discussion posts typically ranges from about 85- 100%. I spoke with my tutor prior to Spring Break, about my desire to pass the course with an 80- 100% of the grading scale. As I deconstruct perfectionism, I feel as if this is a reasonable goal; which falls in line with "s.m.a.r.t"[specific, measurable, achievable, relevant, time- bound] goals.

On another note: I just got good news from my Doctor about the MRI I completed yesterday. She says everything looks “benign, showing post-treatment changes without any suspicious findings”. Confirming the results from the mammogram and ultrasound last month which suggested that the battle with breast cancer is completely gone 🥳